Nov 29, 2018
ILMS9 - The Truth about Mental Health: Suicidality
Suicide Prevention Hotline -
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Special guests: Brandon Hamilton, student, hiphop artist; Joshua Mertz, teacher
Podcast Outline
Brandon’s Song
The Ocean of Social Media
Body Image
John 10:10
Making faith your own
Just be the friend – be there for one person
One Last Breath on YouTube - https://youtu.be/KEV9ZPqKWqw
Koinonia groups
Sources of Strength - https://sourcesofstrength.org/
Brandon’s Lyrics –One Last Breath
Have you ever been so off track
That every breath you wish was your last
Wished you could put on a plastic mask that could change the fact that your past
Is hurting your present self so bad that you never laugh
Unless you’re in the presence of people so they don’t always have to ask
If you’re okay or why your face is red and your eyes always look sad
You can’t be mad cause they care but you hate explaining it drags
You back to the place you don’t wanna go anymore because of it leading to
All of the puddles of blood that you made on the floor from the lines on your wrist when you slashed
Do you live in darkness?
Heart ripped up from hardships?
Shadows creeping up closer every day and you’re the target
True love lost makes you jump off the edge into this dark cliff
Or you’re not cute enough you bruise and cut until your wrist is hard skin
Whatever the situation is please take a second and listen
You’re way too special to visit
The grave and let your life quicken
There’s so much beauty in and out. Don’t shake your head like there isn’t
Open your eyes and take my hand and maybe let it this vision
You and I may not know each other but both have been through some pain
I knew the ruthless game
That Lucifer played
Doubt grew into my brain
Hate and jealousy had preyed especially like flu in veins
I was truly a fool to blame
The Christ of whom for you was slain
What I’m saying ain’t fake
I relate because I’ve been grey
Not so great and my brain was raging with hate and making me crazed
Each day I was in pain and afraid I would waste away
This is what I would say until I learned I was saved
I’m getting sick of fighting for what I want. There’s no more defense
I’m tired of the well-deserved punishments that the lord has sent
I miss just being bored to death
It’s better than getting more depressed
Cause everything’s been crashing around me. My life’s been torn to shreds
More than less
It’s sorta been
A glorious mess
No more respect
I’m lying on the ground, Satan’s above me and his sword descends
It’s way too heavy for my chest
I’m forcing breaths
Record and send
Ev-er-y error that I have made, make the Internet full, I’m a royal pest
I’m used to saying “Jesus Christ” to curse
I need to see your light in church
But I am hurt, this fire burns
You need to redefine the terms
Instead of bleeding, crying, worse
Turn it to healing, smiling. Work
me into a teen disciple on earth
That would preach your life and serve
I thought then the dark storm clouds had their way with me
Patiently waiting ain’t saving so I went and prayed on my scraped up knees
It’s amazing, he came to me majorly changing the way I see
Hate has a cage up here while his grace took my heart and makes it beat
Back when I was saddened feeling hopeless I figured out
I should open my ears to the biggest mouth
That spoke and it made me lift my frown
I’m bigger now
With Him I’m proud
Im gifted, how?
He’s given to me all his scriptures
Delivered his gifts no doubt
I’ve forbidden the sin and don’t sit and pout
From god our creator
He gave us his son the savior
Today is the day we made up our brains and prayed for our haters
Get away from thangs that negate you to raise up to praise our maker
He’s what let me feel like a giant when ripped like a piece of paper
Happiness is magic when you haven’t had it! No adjectives
Can describe just how vast all this passion is cause he grabbed our sins
Took it with him, extracted it, threw it at Satan’s advocates
Our Lord isn’t your average patient weak little pacifist
Even in your darkest time
It’s hard defining dark from light
To spark the fire starts inside
With knowing you’re never too far from Christ
Our martyr tried with his hardest might
He fought and died for all our lives
But still lives inside your heart and mine
So you aren’t confined insular in this darkest of fights
Suicide Prevention Hotline -
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
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